yuck. gay.

Hello,


Hmmm... not much has happened lately! This weekend rocked! i went to a show at the factory, called the stache bash. i went with kevin, ashley, and F.M. we all wore fake mustaches. it was pretty rockin! we saw returned in ruins! maaaaaan, they rocked my face off! we also saw a bunch of other awesome bands! but, i miss Disruptor! AAARG! anyways, this weekend is All-State.. and i really want Kev to go, he's the only way i'll feel at ease. He's my support system! i need him there to calm my nerves and my choir teacher might not let him. how cheesy is that?! ewww. well, she's callin my mom tonight or sometime soon, so hopefully it'll be cool. man, i dont even feel up to it anymore. my voice is messed up right now.. it hurts to even breathe. its gay! if it's not better by saturday, there's no way i'm going. i'm not gonna embarass myself. that's too much! ugh!.. anyways, i guess nothing else is going on except for me loving life. :] hope you guys are doing amazing!

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cheeseface.

Hello everyone,

Today was alright. The first half was kinda horrible but, after that, it got better. Now, i'm super dee duper bored. Ashley was gonna come over, but turns out she's grounded. That sucks. So, now I'm just uploading pictures and hanging on myspace. Then, I'm gonna practice my all-state music. It's getting easier. I hope I don't embarass my myself at the auditions. We'll see, I guess. Hmm... I've been really tired a lot lately. It sucks. I hope I get to get more sleep. I'm gonna try to start sleeping in on saturdays, cause' lately, I haven't been. Well, I'm gonna go now. America's Next Top Model is calling my name. I suggest you watch it. :D


Have a wonderful day.
<3 Jordan.

relief.

Well, this weekend has been pretty cool. some bad moods, but all is well. sorta. we'll see how tonight goes. hmmmm... friday, i hung out with kevin and we went to the mall with my brother and candace. then, saturday i went to kevin's for a little bit, ate some yummy bbq, and took some rockin pictures. then, i came home, hung with kevin, then ashley and josh came over and we rocked out. then, this morning, i went to church, ate some lunch, and went to lifechurch for this thing called national porn sunday. it was a pretty powerful message. then, my day got a little bad again when kevin and i got to my house, but we worked it out.


so, if you ever lie to your mom about something, tell her. cause' she'll probably understand. i did. and i am filled with relief that i told her. i just want her to trust me to be honest with her. and she does. and i'm glad. :]

i'm loving life. there are stressful times, but everytime I fall, i'm picked back up again by my lovely Savior Jesus Christ. I'm looking forward to just be myself again, not making stupid decisions, not hiding things, not straying away from the One who created me. No, the good ol' church girl Jordan who obviously has joy in her life and has Christ in her heart. that's me. that's who i am. and that's who i'll forever be.


<3

lessons.

my weekend and beginning of the week have been crazy. lessons. tears. laughter. joy. all the emotions mixed into one person. me. for me, it been hard to handle. really hard. cause' i didnt notice, but i bottled it up inside and it all kinda exploded. i've been doing things that arent liked me and hurts me. i've even been straying away from God. shocker huh? but, for the first time yesterday, it all comes out, and i cry out to God. it felt good. joy and pain into one emotion that felt good. but, out of all this, i became thankful. so so thankful. for my life. my whole life. my family, my friends... everything and everyone. i'm blessed with the most amazing life and i let it get into my head and just try to find things wrong with it. which is not like me, i just havent been myself lately. and it hurts. it really does. but, to wake up and hear God... telling me to keep going is a great feeling. i just need help. and i'll get it, i really will. TIG. trust in God. that's just what i'll do. and thats what you should do to. :]